Carpe Diem

I've been slacking on my daily grateful rants. I didn't even get to yesterday's journey through the Bible in 90 days. I've been on a lil roller coaster. And I don't do roller coasters. I've been real lonely and weak, and I don't mean physical. My weakest part of the day is the morning. For some reason. It's because I've gotten so used to waking up to someone, everyday. The first underway/deployment I was here, with family, but I slept on the couch...with my nieces usually. I was never alone. But this time that I'm here, I have my own room. My sister and her husband, with the kiddies, moved out. The only one who sleeps with me now is my cat &/or my moms dog. They are cute and cuddly, but not the fur I REALLY wanna cuddle up with! In the words of Johnny Bravo,

"Hey babeh...Check out my fur!"

So today I am seizing the day! Taking my weakness and trading it for strength! WooHoo! This is me catching up. 

5 Things I'm grateful for (since Thursday):

1-God is truly remarkable! He has been revealing soo many things to me! And evoked the fear of God back in me when He spoke through a close friend. We get so caught up in complaining & asking for His blessing, that we forget that He wants to hear us PRAISE him as well. How do you go to your Father? With griping & nagging, or with a thankful & joyful heart?

2-God hears our prayers & knows our future. All we have to do is be patient. If I had seen this coming I would have denied it! When He closes one door, he opens another, better, one. I may have lost a best friend, but I have gained so much more! You're awesome..you know who you are!

3-Social Networking. I have a support system. I'm proud to say that. You have no idea. The first one was really hard for me because I didn't have this. All my ladies are amazing! Thank you!

4-My momma. She is finally in the loop on things with me and let me tell you, it's so relieving! We are extremely tight. Like besties. We're cute. lol

5-I have to say that I fell a little. I ate some junk & had a Dr. Pepper yesterday. I, of course, regret it later. But it was soooo good! Helped me to be a little more grateful of the little things I guess.

What are you grateful for? I challenge you to jot down five things at the end of each day that you are thankful/grateful for that day. It's a life-changing experience.

It's just MALARKY!!!

   Sorry in advance if I offend someone who may read this. Maybe you won't and the apology really isn't needed. But this is my place to vent. I'm torn and need to get it out. 

   So two weeks ago something happened. My girl and her ex have been feuding. And they managed to put me in the middle of their relationship and fight. He said she said bull. I had had enough, pretty much had a breakdown, said I was done. And the other night confirmed it. It's stupid. Childish. Just plain malarky, I tell ya! I am a friend. A shoulder to cry on or vent to. If you ask for my advice, I'm gonna give it. It's your choice to take it or not. I'm honored if you do. I don't give senseless advice. I trust GOD for the right words. I don't appreciate when things are said, that I did NOT say. Or twisting what I DO say. Is a friendship, a sisterhood, really worth losing over lies??? To me it is not. You really choose to believe this malarky of a claim??? Well that's your prerogative.
   These past few months have been some of the hardest in my life. A very vulnerable time for me. Thanks for not being here for me when I've needed you the most, even though I'm ALWAYS here for YOU. No matter what. You know that you've been the ONLY one that I could turn to, 'cause I've had no one else. Yet you choose to live in your lies and pretty much forget about me. MALARKY!!!

    I forgive you and will not forget. Maybe this is God burning another bridge to the past. Time for me to move on.

Time for todays reading!

Journey day 5

Just finished today’s journey.
Day 5.
Pages 49-61.
Exodus 1 - 15.
   Moses led the people out of Egypt and through the Red Sea. They are now free from the Egyptians! WOOT! God is amazing, isn’t he?! When he says, promises, that he’s gonna do something & be specific about it, he does it baby! There’s a passage sticking out to me today. Chapter 13 verses 1-16 is about consecrating the firstborn. Verse 16 says, “It will be like a sign on your hand and a symbol on your forehead that the Lord brought us out of Egypt with His mighty hand.” This is so a picture of the Messiah! We have to have a blood atonement for our sins. Jesus was that lamb. Jesus is the Word and He died so we can have that Word permeated into our hearts and minds. We have to reach out , make that sacrifice of ourselves, and bring His love, mercy, and forgiveness to our lips, our minds, so that we can be “delivered” from the grip of the enemy.
   All day today has been about being healed by the Hand of God. Whether it be in my prayers, worship, or studying His Word. I’ve been feeling real weak the past two days. I don’t mean physically. I’m talking spiritually, emotionally, & mentally. I’ve never had a best friend that has stuck through everything. When something happens, I find out who my true friends are. At a point when I need someone the most, I lose another. The only one I had. Don’t get me wrong. I have lots of “friends”. But none that I know, without a shadow of a doubt, I can call anytime and vent or whatever about anything no matter what it may be. One who I am absolutely comfortable with doing that. Trust enough to whole-heartedly confide in. Earlier today I was crying about how I don’t get out. That I have no friends to hang out with anymore because they’ve all deserted me. How can you do that to someone who’s in a vulnerable state?! Anywho, even though I didn’t exactly want to, I picked up my Bible and began reading. Thank God I did! I tend to listen to worship, or any Christian music, while I study…or do anything really! I just so happened to have the TV on Daystar, as well. Every song & sermon that came on hit me like a ton of bricks! Thank you Lord…for humbling me! He spoke to me today in every way that He is here with me. His presence is calming and comforting. Like a little girl who runs to her daddy when she’s scared. I ran to my daddy. The only daddy I’ve ever known, and will ever know. He’s my ultimate best friend who will never let me down. I may not have the fellowship of friends, outside of social networking, but the fellowship I have with Christ is far beyond what we could imagine here on earth!
   If you’re like me, and you’re feeling down and out, hold your head up. Get on your knees. Grab your Bible and your worship music. Praise the God of heaven and earth! He is here! He has us in the palm of His hand. He will never leave, nor forsake us!  He has a calling on us and will open that door to who HE has planned for us to be. It may seem every door is being slammed in our face, but don’t fret, for He has complete control. Remember that LOVE & perseverance conquers all!

The B90

The B90 Days 1-4

So I got my new Bible in! "Through the Bible in 90 Days" Cover to cover in just 12 pages a day. I've never been very fond of the NIV, but I'm liking this! I have my New American Standard along with it. And my KJV. And my references. I seem to be like my gamma...my mom's mom. When she'd sit down to study her Word, she'd have several different versions as well study guides, all around her. So when I study I feel like she's there with me.
I started on Tuesday, August 3rd. Today's the fifth & I know the headline says days 1-4. I couldn't stop so I went two days ahead! But I've gained a lot of insight and even confirmation to a few prayers! And I've only gotten through the first book! 65 more to go! I will try to update each day, but no promises.

Thursday Five

Hey everyone it's Thursday! Time for our Thursday fives...courtesy of Mrs. Gambizzle! Write your own, head on over to her blog, and link up! http://lifeasasailorsgirl.blogspot.com/ This is a perfect way to reflect on the week, whether it was good, bad, or just plain ugly.

Entry Word: happy-go-lucky
Function: adjective

1 having or showing a lack of concern or seriousness

Main Entry: de·light 
Pronunciation: \di-ˈlīt, dē-\
Function: noun

2 : something that gives great pleasure

Main Entry: ec·stat·ic 
Pronunciation: \ek-ˈsta-tik, ik-ˈsta-\
Function: adjective

: of, relating to, or marked by ecstasy

Main Entry: gig·gly
Pronunciation: \ˈgi-gəl\
Function: verb

: to laugh with repeated short catches of the breath

Main Entry: joy 

Pronunciation: \ˈjȯi\

Function: noun

2 : a state of happiness or felicity : bliss

1-Saturday my lovely sailor called! AHHHH!!!! It was all I could do NOT to scream into the phone! I did have a little shriek in my voice though. 

2-Sunday I drove to Jax to see him! I was so excited I didn't sleep, but an hour Saturday night...well Sunday morning. Even though it was a 3 hour drive I managed to stay awake. Especially when he called me! I almost couldn't drive. Those 12 hours with him were absolutely worth it! 

3-I got my "Through the Bible in 90 days" Bible! I'm now on day 5! I can now say that I've read all the way through Genesis..every word! Pretty soon I will have read through the entire Bible! A feat I have yet to accomplish, but will have soon tackled it! Woot! 

4-Church. It's important to fellowship with other "like-minded" people. Surround yourself with those who build you up. And the worship is a million times worth it! We are doing a study through Romans..chapter by chapter. Amazing the things that are being revealed to me.

5-Social networking! I've met new and interesting people through Facebook and blogging. I am not alone in this struggle.